Tuesday, May 26, 2009

You're Home

Dear Briana,

I was just thinking today that tomorrow will be 26 months since your birth. I just have a hard time wrapping my mind around the thought that it's been that long since I had you....and that it's been almost that long since I've last held you. It reminds me of how dearly I miss you and how much I wish you were here.

Whenever I see children that seem about 2 years old, I think of you....I see you. Sometimes I catch myself staring at them in wonder; trying to picture you as a 2 year-old. They are so big and talkative; it's so hard to picture you that way.

The other day I was just thinking about you and Heaven. I kept thinking about how hard it is to think you're in Heaven because Heaven seems so far away. It's hard because I've never seen Heaven; I only have an idea of how it is to be there. We all kind of picture Heaven differently, based on what we've heard or read about it. It just seems so distant and blurry. I know it is magnificent, but it still hurts to know that you are there and not here. So I told myself, you're in Heaven, you're HOME. For some reason it just makes me feel a bit better. Our home is Heaven, yes I know, but I've only experience home on this earth, not in Heaven. And I know home to be a very special place here, a place where I love to be. I can only imagine how much more special it is to be in our eternal home. So, from now on, when I think of Heaven, I will think of that wonderful place we call home...and know that you are there, being taken care of by your eternal Father; and waiting for me.

I love you.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mother's Day


Dear Briana,

Today is Mother's Day. I can't help but think back two years ago to the Mother's Day I shared with you. I don't remember exactly what we did that day, but I am very sure that it was special, just because it was spent with you. How much I wish I could remember that day, but for some reason it just is a blur to me.

Today is another Mother's Day...you're not here to share it with, but I can feel you in my heart...your presence I can always find there. This year I am a mother of two, unbelievable. Your sister scribble signed a card that daddy made for me; he had it placed next to the breakfast he made for me when I woke up this morning. It was a very sweet little card and I had no idea your daddy knew how to make something like that. He actually went on the computer and searched for a Mother's Day card! He's learning something new every day...

Yesterday daddy and Avalyn took me to brunch in Sarasota. We took Avalyn down to the beach where she took a quick dip in the ocean and then we went shopping. It was a nice afternoon together. Today your Aunt Lisa and I will be making dinner for Grandma. Not just any dinner either, a special one for Mother's Day to your grandma.

I wish you were here.

I love you.