Sunday, May 9, 2010

Dear Baby

11/11/2006


Dear baby,

This is mommy’s first journal entry to you. I have been wanting to do this for a while now but have never actually sat down and did it until now. I have so much I want to tell you, my heart is overflowing with emotions and love for you that’s hard to put into words. I am almost 22 weeks pregnant with you now and feel you squirm and flip-flop every day. You are quite the active little one in there, I wouldn’t be surprised if you end up being a gymnast or a boxer. Whatever you do, mommy will be proud. Know that your dad and I love you so much already and are so looking forward to your arrival. I tear up just thinking about seeing your beautiful face for the first time, hearing your first cry, touching your soft skin - all of this is only about 18 weeks away. I am trying my hardest to enjoy being pregnant with you and not getting overly anxious to meet you. I want to savor every moment because before I know it you’ll be all grown up and having your own children. Even so, I still think about taking you on your first stroll in the park, capturing your first smile, watching you courageously take your first step. Daddy and I are looking forward to our future with you, our precious child. We love you deeply. I will write more later, but remember above all that God loves you more. You are the apple of His eye, as you are ours. Daddy is just getting home now so I will write more later. Mommy loves you!

Ocean Blue


Sittin’ here

Gazing at my Ocean Blue

Crying those long, steady

Burning hot tears

Got this aching feelin’

Don’t ever seem to go away

Deep within-

Since I lost my Ocean Blue


Can’t stop wonderin’, askin’

Lord, tell me

How is my Ocean Blue?


Lookin’ at those blues

Once shinin’ so bright

Where’s the joy?

Can’t fight off the sorrow

Nothin’s been the same

Fightin’ away this wayward life

Life is pain, shame-

Since I lost my Ocean Blue


Askin’ all kinds of questions

Lord, answer me

How is my Ocean Blue?


Can’t sleep this night

This train just don’t stop movin’

Wish it would all just disappear

For a while

Lend me some sleep

But unrelentin’, tears keep flowin’

Heart is ever achin’-

Since I lost my Ocean Blue


I just can’t stop thinkin’

Please, oh please, let me know

How is my Ocean Blue?