Today is sweet Briana's birthday. I don't know what to do. A part of me wants to start some sort of tradition for her birthday's - maybe some kind of a family get together in remembrance of her...kind of a celebration, kinda not. I just don't want people to forget. She may not be here but she was...once. She was born on this day two years ago, the happiest day of my life. I can remember it like it was only yesterday...seeing her for the first time and holding her so tight against my body.
When I think back to our days spent in the hospital, it was like a vacation to me, it was so surreal, so beautiful..those days. Those days, like every other, just passed by so quickly. How much I wish I could have captured them and stored them away, able to relive them piece by piece whenever I please. Instead I have bits and pieces engraved in my memory and today they are all flashing before my eyes. One of the most poignant - seeing Brian holding baby Briana in the nursery through the glass as I was wheeled from the recovery room to our room in the mothers & babys ward. He was so happy, his precious legacy wrapped up tightly in his arms. My mother looking in full of excitement....what beautiful memories. How much I miss those days.
Today will always be Briana's birthday. Please don't ever forget! Remember her in whichever way you choose...write a poem, look at some photos, bake a cake, give to someone in need, hold and kiss your children extra tenderly this day....
Briana, I love and miss you so much. I yell out to you 'Happy Birthday, Briana!'...how I wish I could know if you hear me. Today will always be such a special day to me...two years ago, today, mommy was blessed with the most wonderful gift ever...you! You warmed my heart and my soul, filled this home with laughter and love, you made me so happy...your legacy will live on forever. I am embracing you in my mind and deep within the walls of my heart...I am holding you ever so close...always!
