You're Home

Dear Briana,

I was just thinking today that tomorrow will be 26 months since your birth. I just have a hard time wrapping my mind around the thought that it's been that long since I had you....and that it's been almost that long since I've last held you. It reminds me of how dearly I miss you and how much I wish you were here.

Whenever I see children that seem about 2 years old, I think of you....I see you. Sometimes I catch myself staring at them in wonder; trying to picture you as a 2 year-old. They are so big and talkative; it's so hard to picture you that way.

The other day I was just thinking about you and Heaven. I kept thinking about how hard it is to think you're in Heaven because Heaven seems so far away. It's hard because I've never seen Heaven; I only have an idea of how it is to be there. We all kind of picture Heaven differently, based on what we've heard or read about it. It just seems so distant and blurry. I know it is magnificent, but it still hurts to know that you are there and not here. So I told myself, you're in Heaven, you're HOME. For some reason it just makes me feel a bit better. Our home is Heaven, yes I know, but I've only experience home on this earth, not in Heaven. And I know home to be a very special place here, a place where I love to be. I can only imagine how much more special it is to be in our eternal home. So, from now on, when I think of Heaven, I will think of that wonderful place we call home...and know that you are there, being taken care of by your eternal Father; and waiting for me.

I love you.